Thursday, March 15, 2007

Time... going by way too fast. My constant desire to to make every minute count often leaves me feeling like I could always be doing more, regardless of how much I'm doing or how fast I'm going.

I've recently been thinking about about how much (little?) time I have left in Europe and it makes me a bit sad. Other than seeing friends and family, the thought of going back to the U.S is not an exciting one. I've had so many defining experiences which left me with a lot of amazing memories. In many regards, soon all I'll have left is memories. Right now I can say I live in Barcelona. Soon, I'll have memories of living in Barcelona and traveling Europe.

I need to allow myself to relax and always enjoy the "right now" vs. worrying about what is next. I will focus on enjoying the time I have left as I know that new, better memories are waiting to be created.


Anonymous said...

Good reflection..I can certainly understand the mixed feelings you are experiencing..but nonetheless we all look forward to your arrival
back home :) Much love Mom

mjstrand said...

Rako, I enjoy peeking in on your journeys, as time allows. I simply had to comment on this entry. Safe travels, my friend. Michael

"A pleasure is full grown only when it is remembered. You are speaking, Hmän, as if the pleasure were one thing and the memory another. It is one thing. ...What you call remembering is the last part of the pleasure, as the crah is the last part of a poem. When you and I met, the meeting was over very shortly, it was nothing. Now it is growing something as we remember it. But still we know very little about it. What it will be when I remember it as I lie down to die, what it makes in me all my days till then -- that is the real meaning. The other is only the beginning of it."
-- Hyoi, a hrossa, in C.S. Lewis' Out of the Silent Planet, chapter 12. The bold text is my emphasis